Friday, December 25, 2015

The Hardest Thing I had to do (part 3)

Last Day

     The next morning was magnificent. As soon as my nephew and I ate breakfast my boys were at the door ready to take me back home. Funny though, my son was more excited to see his cousin more than me. I loved being back home with my family and they were happy to have me back. David and I decided to have Julien sleep in his own bed we created for him. He adjusted to it quickly making the night so much better for the both of us.
     It was a process, but we all are coming out of it with rewards.

The Hardest Thing I had to do. (part 2)

Day two...

Another night down. Today I've made it a stay in day with my nephew. David FaceTimes me and gives me an update about the night. Julien seems more excited to see Jeremiah than he is to see me which proves he's doing fine with my absence. David tells me that the night was not bad at all. Julien woke up once during the night to use the bathroom and another time to cuddle, but not successfully. As soon as he noticed that it wasn't "Momma" that he was tying to cuddle with he completely pushed David away and fell asleep on the other side of the bed. David admitted that he was offended by this but at the same time it was good to know that Julien had attempted to put himself to sleep instead of relying on him for comfort. My heart hurts a little while talking to them, but I also am urged to remember that tomorrow morning I will be reunited with them once more.
The day goes by kind of fast. I am preoccupied with taking care of my nephew and having "me-time". Its nice to be able to do the things that I don't have to do, but enjoy doing. Finally my sister and brother-in-law return home from work and I get to wash my hair. Its really nice to fully take care of myself without other responsibilities to think about. After washing my hair I remembered a couple of personality tests that I've wanted my siblings to take since moving down to Buckeye. I get all my paperwork together and begin taking them through. It was interesting to see what their personalities were. In no time it was time for bed and so much closer to reuniting with my boys.

Monday, December 7, 2015

The Hardest Thing I had to do. (part 1)

Day one...

  Last night David and I planned to have me stay over my sister's place for a few days. Mainly its because Julien has created a link with me. He has to be touching my upper chest area for him to be able to go to sleep. Its even more annoying in the middle of the night when he wakes up. Yes, he does still sleep in the bed with us... for now. We gave my sister our crib for their new arrival. We figured since when we get to Cambodia Julien would end up sleeping in our bed with us anyways so why not start while we are living with my mom. Well....I think we (more me than David) are ready to have Julien be more independent.

Saturday night was trial night. I slept in a spare bedroom upstairs while David began the new regimen for Julien. Julien did well, but Sunday night was hard. We tried to warn him that I was leaving. We had a long goodbye which ended up being very confusing to him. Then I was driving off with my sister Julien took one very sad look at the van driving away and I knew he finally understood what we were trying to tell him breaking my heart at the same time. I wanted to cry, but my sister refused to let me. This first day is okay. I'm having fun with my nephew, but I am missing both my husband and son. I got to FaceTime my boys in the morning. Its so funny that though Julien got to see me he was more excited to see his cousin sitting next to me. David said the second night was a bit better, he thinks. Julien woke up in the middle of the night a couple times and one of those times he was expecting to find my chest noticing only David there. He then pushed David away and slept on the other side of the bed.  Julien had a hard time taking a good nap today, but I know that he will learn to sleep by himself which will be great in the long run. I'm having fun with my sister in the mean time. The night is a little lonely though. Not sure, if I am doing as well as Julien not being close. We'll see.